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I don't want to believe in God anymore. I don't think God exist... I always pray and pray and keep praying and last week she's strong... but now... I'll just pretend I didn't hear this news from my cousin. I always tell my grandma that I will show her my animations. I always show her my art and she's the only one on my family that consider my art welcome.
I told her last week about the doll I bought from Japan and I wanted to show it to her in person and probably bring it when I go back to Philippines this summer and she laughed at me.... but... No... she's not dead... I guess this is all lies. I'm really depressed right now, I don't know, I kept thinking of it. She's not dead, I know my cousin is just joking. No, I hate my life now, I hate this world, I hate everyone.... Argghhhh, I should have not open my facebook...

OH GOD, I HATE THIS NIGHTMARE, WAKE ME UP!!! Please tell me she's still okay.... *sob* She should've stayed here in US since doctors in PH can't do anything about her disease. I knew it from the start... It's my grandpa's fault. He said it's cheaper in PH... I hate grandpa... I hate him... I told him about that but he refused... This is why treatment overseas is required but he keeps on going cheaper... cheap cannot save lives...

(I'll be gone for a while just to cool myself, I'm depress, I need to cling on something right now.... I hate valentines, in fact I don't even care since someone you love is not here anyways.... I hate Feb 10) Lola....

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Mood: Hope ~theF-man Mar 10, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
She's in a better place already just like my Dead Granny... She'll watch you and protect your family and you...
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:iconrjace1014:
Thanks for cheering me up! I went to her first 30th day after death prayer held at my Auntie's house.
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:iconthef-man:
~theF-man Mar 23, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You are welcome! ^_^ But I must protect Grandpa either He's already 79. :)
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:iconrjace1014:
Hero time for you! GO do it xD Love him further!
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~theF-man Mar 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you sir! I must follow his orders! & I wont play my computer for a 1 day! I must regulate my time so my grandpa will be happy! I don't want to lose him! He's my last hope! Along with my Mother Side Grandma! (She's just 73) I must slow down our age so that we could have more good times and hours. :)
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:iconrjace1014:
Well you don't have to go that far. When I mean love, you look forward to him but of course not limiting yourself about something but it's up to you if he likes it that way. Yes spend more time with him. All our grandparents have less time in this world left, we should do our best and to spend those remaining time.
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~theF-man Mar 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Ok! You are correct! :) I must take time from now on! Thanks sir RJ! :)
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:icon1000yearseternalmaze:
O, dear, I am so sorry!Believe or not, I somehow can relate to your feelings.Ist one of the worst possible things to experience, expecially how young you are still.:(I wish too to assure you its just a dream.:(
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:iconrjace1014:
Thank you for being there to comment and cheer me a bit. We went the other day to her 30th day of death prayer held at my auntie's house.
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=FairyBubblePuppy Mar 1, 2013  Student Writer
Oh my gosh. I know this is probably not very helpful, but I'm so sorry. I really am. It's truly horrible to lose someone you love. This comment is a bit late, but my condolences to you and your family; I hope that everything is OK and that things will look up for you soon. May your grandmother rest in peace. :heart:
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