I don't want to believe in God anymore. I don't think God exist... I always pray and pray and keep praying and last week she's strong... but now... I'll just pretend I didn't hear this news from my cousin. I always tell my grandma that I will show her my animations. I always show her my art and she's the only one on my family that consider my art welcome.
I told her last week about the doll I bought from Japan and I wanted to show it to her in person and probably bring it when I go back to Philippines this summer and she laughed at me.... but... No... she's not dead... I guess this is all lies. I'm really depressed right now, I don't know, I kept thinking of it. She's not dead, I know my cousin is just joking. No, I hate my life now, I hate this world, I hate everyone.... Argghhhh, I should have not open my facebook...
OH GOD, I HATE THIS NIGHTMARE, WAKE ME UP!!! Please tell me she's still okay.... *sob* She should've stayed here in US since doctors in PH can't do anything about her disease. I knew it from the start... It's my grandpa's fault. He said it's cheaper in PH... I hate grandpa... I hate him... I told him about that but he refused... This is why treatment overseas is required but he keeps on going cheaper... cheap cannot save lives...
(I'll be gone for a while just to cool myself, I'm depress, I need to cling on something right now.... I hate valentines, in fact I don't even care since someone you love is not here anyways.... I hate Feb 10) Lola....