Love Confession#1

I animated this to show the events that took place yesterday. I'm a bit depressed so I get a bit irritated... (I don't know, I already get rejected many times and yet, I still can't handle this things right. I hope I don't think bad today.)

So this what happens, I finally confess to the girl I like. She's Asian Half Filipina/Japanese born here in America. We known each other for at least 2 years since college. She actually adores my anime art and I even made art for her. I actually about to do it last year but I have no confidence and I know I will get rejected eventually. I actually thought of doing this again last December before going to Japan and still have no confidence. Ever since then I keep giving her stuffs like gifts, I bought flowers on her last Valentines even though I'm depress losing my grandma that time and yet yesterday after class, I finally got the power to express it. I said to myself "Now or never! This is it. The result is the outcome." So I told my friend about it so I went home alone. I actually ask to drive her home since she uses bus all the time and I ask her to go with me in "El Pollo Loco" yesterday (Like a date.) There is where I confess to her. I told her that "I don't know how to begin, I felt this before and you complete me..." Then I say "I love you." She actually laughs, I was surprised so I laugh cause she laugh crazy. Then things got serious. She start making a serious face and directly told me... "You're such a wonderful person RJ, I admit you can make a good husband and you're talented but I'm not ready yet for relationship. I also have different taste for the guys I know, so I guess let's stay friends ^__^" After a few moments of silence she ask me to take her home since she got to work on some stuffs.

I just felt rejected I mean "... different taste..." I admit I'm not a good looking person but that really made me depress and think about it till now. All I did all day is either reply or do this animation. Me and my dad even go to my grandma's 30th day prayer and I can't focus. So there is my love confession story. I hope I find my girl someday.... I'm sad.

I don't feel going to school right now as well. I'm so embarrassed. I don't think I can even talk to her or so since we've been quiet ever since that and take her home. I use to talk and happy but embarrassed since then. So yeah, I guess I have to deal with.

PS note: I seat next to her in class. So... it's complicated and so shy right now. I don't know hahaha

Coffee added nervousness into me.

Why do girls have to reject you all the time... (I'm not really in mood to even go anywhere, I think I should tell my dad to be absent right now. There's no point since I'll never be in the top row, might as well go easy on my study then...

If you're not good looking, you don't get the beauty of this world and that's fact. Lucky people with money of course does...

Software: ToonBoom Animate Pro 2 (TBAP2)
Tablet: Cintiq 12wx
Heart Level: Broken </3
Reaction: Overreacting
Mood: Irritated/depressed/psychotic